This month you started sleeping in your crib in your own room. I kept making excuses, saying you weren’t ready yet, but as soon as we tried it out, you slept so peacefully, I couldn’t deny that you were obviously thrilled to be in your own space.
You keep me up at night, worrying about whether or not you’re going to still be breathing when I wake up. Even when I’m certain that you’re okay, my heart jumps into my throat every time I check on you first thing in the morning. I don’t think I’ve ever felt so worn out from worrying, ever! You’re going to make me go grey! 🙂 I’m so proud of you for pulling through and being such a strong, sweet little thing, even when you’re sick.
You love playing in your exersaucer. You’re really starting to get the hang of actually playing with the toys and making them sing to you. If you didn’t get hungry, you’d probably sit in there all day long!
You still have your freakishly long eyelash. Daddy’s suggested pulling it out, but I refuse to haha! It won’t be there forever, and I think it’s so cute and unique. Your eyes are still a beautiful blue. I wonder what color they’ll turn into!
I’m so blessed to be your Mom. I can’t believe I ever lived life before you, and it was only 4 months ago! I try my best to soak in every day with you, but no matter how hard I cling on to these precious moments, they’re fleeting. Every day you’re even bigger than the last, and you learn new skills constantly. This is only the beginning and I’m already weepy over having less time with you. I don’t know what the future holds for us, but I will never stop fighting for you and your well being, even if you do. You’re such a beautiful, smart, independent baby, I can only imagine what a wonderful man you will become, and I can’t wait to see it happen.
You are so worth every stretch mark, every wrinkle, every pound and every grey hair.
I love you so much,
I always have and I always will,